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When I hear “cowardly terror attack” in the news

It’s not the first time I hear something like this, exploiting an incident for incitement and personal commentary. For a news speaker such language should be forbidden, but it shows how much they have become propaganda speakers for the establishment.
People allow themselves such transgression because THEY are cowards and are trying to distract from that, by rallying against their nemesis. Standards of proper conduct and professionality are thrown out the window when people think they can get away with it, because it’s popular and because peer pressure tries to stifle critique of that mainstream.
This shows how troubled our society is and how the demons we fight originate in us.

Cowardice is rooted in existential fears and its derivatives. Calling someone a coward who is deliberately giving up their life … well, as I said, that’s what cowards do who refuse to understand the real causes that drive people to such ultimate self-sacrifice, because then they would have to see their own responsibility and involvement, and that is inconvenient, and cowards fear personal inconvenience.
Speaking of a “cowardly terror attack” is barking from the cheap seats, self-importance from the safety of peer support. It is only a small step away from a news speaker saying “Those evil barbarian enemies of all that is good need to be eradicated”, and things have moved in that direction and still do. The example in the title is not the most extreme case of an ignorant inciteful mindset I have witnessed.

People with some spine don’t kick downwards, but punch or at least look upwards, towards the source of collective suffering, the influential war-mongering psychopaths. They are given power through the convenience of fear, through cowardice, through refusing to confront your inner demons and thus manifesting them in the world through your denial-fueled actions.

You either become a common rabble puppet of the age-old game of divide-and-conquer or you find some courage and hone your character. And if these words upset you or create antagonistic thoughts, then that’s where you need to start that work. And that involves the most scary thing: opening your heart. Because the heart is not just the source of true kindness, but also of courage. Mind without heart is nothing but fear. It makes you ascend in the ranks of those who further the suffering in the world, which you will then call being successful.

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Star Citizen – Operation Pitchfork to turn humans into Vanduul?

In the game Star Citizen, Operation Pitchfork is a fandom idea where at the end of the beta phase all kinds of people, not just the military, will invade the space of the war-minded aggressive Vanduul race as an act of retaliation and such. Thus the name: Basically a lynch mob of commoners armed with pitchforks.

And I suddenly realized while reading a news report from the galactic front…

Operation Pitchfork would mark the victory of the demons that drive the Vanduul by turning humans into their enemy; making them a tribe fully committed to being aggressors, fully expanding the war mind to civilians.
While I say that all the people should support good values like freedom and keep society healthy, the methods are very relevant. Among the most valuable functions of the military is their sacrifice of directly facing and dealing with the horrors that war inevitably brings with itself so that civilian life can remain that. Then military people will also have a healing sanctuary to return to and recover and remind them of what they fight for. The Vanduul is exactly what you get when you expand the ‘culture of war’ far into the civilian life.

Act on fear and fear you will serve.
Sometimes it is the coward who fights and the brave one who refrains.

The Darwinian 1-try question test

You need to answer a question given.
You have only one try.
If you fail to answer it right, you die.
You are allowed to use the internet.

Exemplary question: “Why do bronies love My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic?”

You’d be amazed how people can suddenly experience a seemingly miraculous intelligence boost.

You’d also be amazed how some people are willing to rather die than wisen up.
(They have dumbed themselves down too much to be aware that they did.)

Fear makes stupid.
Fear kills.
Afraid to die?
Stop being afraid.
It’s the best you can do, for yourself and others.

Airspace violation cases bring NATO depravity to surface

When several parties fight against a common enemy, this should have a uniting influence, but as always, when you put someone to the test, you learn about their true character.

So the IS is fought by NATO and Russia. Russian fighter planes operate in Syria because of this. And then one accidentally violated the airspace of the neiboring Turkey and was shot down! Russia enacted economic sanctions against Turkey because of this, and rightfully so.
Because realize the implications: What a psychopathic trigger-happy warmongering government does Turkey have? They knew it was a Russian plane and they knew it was there as part of fighting the enemy of NATO and Russia, the IS. Turkey is in the NATO. They couldn’t have possibly been so insane as to believe that Russian plane might have intended to attack Turkey. You don’t react like that unless you want conflict. (And let’s not forget how NATO themselves treats their putting pressure on other countries through close military presence like a right they have. They are experts at offending.)

Recently there was another case of a Russian plane scratching that Turkish airspace, and again the NATO (not just Turkey) plays the outraged.

The motivations for all this are mostly known, NATO being an instrument of a Cold War mindset that never really ended, always keeping the separation intact and discarding good will from Russia (pretty much what USA did and does with Iran), but there are also some less commonly known non-secrets, and cases like these airspace violations might actually serve to fully dig up the ugly truth.

You see, while the IS is an enemy of NATO and Turkey is a NATO member, Turkey doesn’t really consider IS their enemy. They have quite an interest in its continued existence. (They’re not the only ‘Western ally’ with such an interest.) And this is what is being brought closer to the surface of public awareness with such incidents. And that can be considered healthy. It is ‘Teacher Discord’ at work.

These things reveal more and more the underlying nature of shifting allegiances of the West (the USA and its lackeys), determined by who serves the imperial agenda. In such a system, there are no friends or enemies based on values of decency. It is all profoundly egoistical; a game of sociopaths, of fear, cowardice, denial of responsibility and fanaticism.

The Cruel God Fallacy

Some people say things like: How can God allow such horrific suffering? I thought he is loving.

Some people greatly enjoy watching/reading Game of Thrones, or any other kind of great drama, with death and emotional agony and all that.
Do people say how the creators are so cruel and condemn them? No. People enjoy drama. Because it touches them emotionally. Pleasantly and unpleasantly. Feeling is the key; it is favored. It makes people relate. The writers themselves might be very emotionally attached to their works. And there the big picture is what matters. They love the whole thing and don’t (necessarily) play favorites.

Now how can you (being a part of God’s creation) imply that God has any different relationship with his creation? He, too, appreciates a good show/story, exploration of an experience. And thus life is enriched with emotions, without which life would literally feel dead.
And you cannot have one pole without the other. Even if you could, then the exploration would not be perfect. The exploration of infinite possibilities. Because that is the positive message in the fact that anything can exist, no matter how horrible: It demonstrates those infinite possibilities actively at work. Anything could happen. And when you embrace that, it opens your heart, and when you open your heart to it, you can enjoy it.
That’s the irony of profound wisdom: Bad stuff will happen till the end of time, but if you don’t conditionalize the good stuff based on the bad stuff, then the latter loses power over you. This is a lesson that cannot be understood. It can only be experienced, felt, internalized. Don’t expect it to be quick or easy. It just happens when you move towards it. Which means not subjecting it to conditions, because that’s a good way to slow it down. That’s not at all what love is about.
If you manage to love the whole work of art, you will have an understanding with the creator. And that is something, haha.

This is, as all paths of overcoming suffering, about releasing the mind’s control.
Love will always be your loyal ally, and fear will always be your fierce enemy. Do your best not to collude with the enemy. You have the absolutely most powerful ally at your disposal.
But don’t worry, there is no dead end. When fear really gets you, it will make love become so much more worth giving attention.

Scold people for doing bad things if you like, but scolding God seems silly.
Who do you think you are? 😉

Don’t torture yourself.

Fear seeks fear, love seeks love

Imagine a rich man, driving expensive cars and everything. Some people would say: “You should give me some of your money, you have so much and I so little.” They arrogantly, in mental convenience, disregard any possible hardships that person might have gone through to make it happen. Yes, there are many rich people who got it through ruthlessness and uncaring, but you don’t know a stranger’s story. Maybe the guy with the feeling of entitlement even would have been rich himself if he hadn’t spent all his money. Maybe he has led a relatively enjoyable life, but still wants more.
Imagine the added difficulty that such envious people can pose for your efforts to fulfill a dream. Those who choose to live the problem are often the ones expecting the cure to stoop to their level and join them in their misery so that it doesn’t cause them mental inconvenience. The same mental inconvenience that made them choose to live the problem.
(Right now I remember a symbolically related scene from What Dreams May Come.)

I am not rich, but I have other qualities that have equally been under attack for as long as I can think back. I always had a fine sense for the smell of something rotten in people and an equal sensitivity that made it impossible for me to give in to that like many others do.
And such people are not satisfied with making my life a hell with their silly jealousy, but further burden me with their envious resentment for still exerting the strength to defend the best in me against their very repression efforts. The more I suffer under it, the more they claim it unnatural and unreasonable to resist their barrage. They hate that I make their weakness visible to them through exemplary contrast. By this they are sliding down further in their own hell, too, and feed their nemesis. I don’t like filling that role at all, but it is not my choice. All I want is to be myself; the best that I can be. Those who are too inflexible to accept that can just fuck off, for they only cause me more grief. The more they build their castle of avoidance, the more difficult it might be to figure them out. It is an impressive castle, after all. But a cold one. And any effort you invest in them they can shatter in an instant.

I had virtue and they tried to destroy my self-respect. They made me a virtuous altruist. Eventually I became too sick of their shit. They made me a virtuous egotist. Now they’re really fucked. Because now they’re not only in misery, but alone in their misery; without help. I am alone in my virtue. Not caring for those who have shown to not deserve it will be a win for those who do deserve it, and thus for me, too.
Very many people are just too damn inept to comprehend win-win situations.
Well, no surprise there. As I often point out: Fear makes stupid.

Have you ever tried to make yourself less intelligent? You can’t with love. But fear does it all the time. If fear is your enemy and not your friend, don’t even try. You will only torture yourself.

People may not know that they fell. They don’t want to know. They see themselves in pressing, relentless action and consider themselves daring and courageous, not realizing when they have built or invited a strong fear-motivation for themselves that keeps them busy with building their cold castle. They are merely productive.

In some people you can only feel it. In others you can also see it.

We don’t need people to do more. We need people to realize what they are doing.

Krav Maga – Breeding the world’s most deadly cowards

These notes are semi-refined. A bit of flow-of-thought style, as I like to do. Obviously this will offend some people, but that’s an issue in the offended, and that’s part of the theme of what I write about. Unlike the people and behaviors I examine in the following, I am not acting based on fear. Fear is the mind-killer. It weakens the character.

I watched a documentary about martial arts and now an episode about Krav Maga and hearing about its rules and basics, it sounded like a political guide book. Which makes perfect sense if you consider that it is the Israeli fighting style.
It immediately was an obvious stark polarity to previous episodes about Asian martial arts and mostly any other style.

– Developed originally as defense for the meek and helpless against an oppressive regime and with this idea further developed and practiced by a powerful military force.
– Focuses on things considered forbidden in other martial arts (groin kicks, throat punches, eye pokes), for the sake of effectiveness and defeating your enemy as quickly as possible.
– Always defend and attack at the same time.
– Is also a mentality, and the key word is aggression. (according to a trainer)

It’s what the Israeli military learns.
Just like Eastern martial arts, it has its ‘philosophical’ side. Just that it’s a very different one.

Krav Maga sounds like Grave Maggot. I came up with this pun before realizing how applicable it is, hah.

Krav Maga is designed to turn average people into the world’s most deadly cowards.

I guess it’s something you can be proud of if you fully focus on the deadly part. Which should be no problem at all. To most people, it comes naturally.

The style is adapted to being the lone one being crowded, facing multiple opponents, implying that you are the good guy. But if you have an assault rifle and your opponents are tormented and hungry and united in their resistance and spirit, then you are trained for being a bully, for acting like a victim when you’re not. For acting like a soldier invading a market to hunt down and punish people and believing you are an innocent civilian who just wanted to buy some fruit and gets assaulted by a mob.

Here’s some much-needed Eastern wisdom combined with social psychology:
Since Krav Maga was originally created as a way for Jews to defend against the Nazis, this means its conception was brought about by two influences: Krav Maga wouldn’t exist without the Jews, and Krav Maga wouldn’t exist without the Nazis. Half of Krav Maga keeps the role of the suffering victim alive, the other half the oppression. And when you keep acting like the Nazis are still around when they’re not, you need to find a replacement to make that idea work, to give your mentality purpose. It boils down to classical projection. You cultivate your preferred inner state (like not wanting to let go of pain and fear), and then you try to shape the outer world accordingly in order to create a comfort zone that allows you to live with your inner demons without being reminded of them.

And that’s in part why I tend to say that Hitler isn’t dead, but alive and well in Israel. He lives on in his victims; turned them into agents. It’s traditional; inherited fear.

In the documentary series, there was also a very insightful statement made about the differences of cultures and philosophies and how they affect martial arts and the other way round. A statement that pretty much sums up where the problem lies and points to the solution:

‘In typical Western MA, you try to impose your will onto other people. In typical Asian MA, you see your opponent lose balance and merely help them fall.’

Asian martial arts are closely connected to the culture’s philosophy, i.e. a mindset of strength through inner peace; of NOT acting like a victim. For building character. Krav Maga is like a caricature; the extreme imbalance – total physical survival mode. It’s like the guys from the dojo with the black clothes in Karate Kid, where they were used an a contrast, or metaphor for what’s wrong with Western mindset.

Krav Maga is the only martial ‘art’ I know that focuses on character weakening. All it has going for it is the idea of “Keep going!” which serves as a simple distraction from how it erodes pretty much the rest of your character. Perpetual “Keep going!” makes you forget to pause and reflect on what you are doing.

You know, to go back to the documentary material … it is telling when after a line of very respectful and awe-inspiring statements by the main participants, one of them said he thinks, based on his experiences in the army, that his instructor is “partially insane, not a stable human being”. Even if he didn’t mean it 100% serious, such choice of words always expresses sincerity, especially since no “just kidding” vibe could suffice to make you not pause and think when you hear that from a guest about a host.

The problems with US police seem related, of a similar mindset. You have people of weak character given power and authority. They use fear as justification. They go to an incident scene and then go into “They’re out to get me” self-defense mentality based on fear.

I’m quite sure a proper wu shu master could defeat a krav maga master easily and quickly, without causing lasting injury. The more balance there is in the practice, the easier it gets to exploit the opponent’s imbalance.
It’s relatively simple for anybody to master something that requires so little; such a narrow, focused skillset.

In sparring, you apologize when you hurt your sparring partner. In Krav Maga there are no rules, so there is no real sparring. They showed that in the documentary when his not-really sparring partners repeatedly went straight for his leg injury, making him scream in great pain. When I saw that, I wanted to tell him to play their game by their rules and kick the shit out of them. Then let’s see how that gang of bullies can handle suffering from their own game. Then again, he was probably too afraid that he would get killed then. As they exclaimed repeatedly, those guys are nuts. If they wanted to really get into the spirit of Krav Maga, they’d have to go nuts, too.
There was also as I remember no or almost no swearing in previous episodes, but in this one, there was plenty. It’s also the only episode where they tell their instructors what they want to hear without really meaning it. Their recap was that the past five days were more mental conditioning than actually growing technique-wise. Basically just about not giving up when doing pit fighting. Naked survival, training to become totally ruthless if necessary.

Last time I checked, US marine training wasn’t considered a martial art.

At one point the guy farewell-hugged his instructor and mentioned that he habitually wanted to go into defensive position. There you see how it affects the mind; what it cultivated towards. You get mistrust deeply ingrained, which can eventually lead to paranoia and psychosis, and that’s what you see a lot in that country.

At one point the instructor said: ‘You need to be alert, 24/7, every day, all the time’. There’s your unhealthy, obsessed imbalance again. Aiming for the impossible. Driving yourself crazy if you are serious. Again, Asia understands the importance in balance. If you push yourself all the time and don’t allow yourself phases of rest and depressurization, you’ll break down. You’ll ruin yourself. And if you keep being afraid of covert attacks from anywhere all the time, you’ll get adrenaline fatigue and your body is not allowed to heal. It will have to adapt to that, but this cannot go on forever. The imbalance will sink in deeper and deeper. I know from own experience that it can be hard to give it a rest when you are (impatiently) driven towards something, but pushing it further will always come at a cost that needs to be paid if not soon in soft currency, then later in hard cash.

At the final trial they again tried to seriously hurt his leg, and the way he fought he was still too polite to try and DEAL some serious injury. And that showed his real character. That he wouldn’t stoop to their level.
Finally they celebrated that they could welcome them into their ‘family’ in “true hell”. Must give them real comfort to know that another person accepted to share their misery and assume, even for a while, their unhealthy attitude.

Understand that a dojo full of physical pain doesn’t imply it can’t be a massive comfort zone for the mind. Because anything you can go through in a Krav Maga training is trivial compared to the suppressed pain that might make you seek out such training. Getting rid of some inner demons can mean you have to be willing to die; to give up your will to live. Which is the opposite to Krav Maga’s core message of never giving up. Wisdom means to know when to give up. Sometimes what you aim for will remain absolutely impossible to reach, maybe even move further away from you, as long as you keep pushing for it. You’d become an obsessed fanatic.

In the very end, one of them summed it up very well, jokingly, but it has to be asked in all seriousness: “Why train Krav Maga when I can just spend 40 bucks on a taser?”
Yeah. I could just pose as a Krav Maga master-instructor and beat the shit out of my students with a stick and tell them this is elemental core practice; just take it and keep going. There’s no way to tell a madman from a Krav Maga teacher. In previous episodes, with the ‘less Western’ styles, but generally with pretty much any other style, you just knew there was more to it. But of course, if you are a master of something so imbalanced, there is no depth, no contrast.
There’s a reason why there is no master title or martial arts label for running amok. Even associating the word “art” with Krav Maga is an insult to art of all kinds.
Hopefully the practice outside of Israel will at least not share the Israeli sickness and instead focus more on the technique set of defending against multiple attackers. But then, why still call it Krav Maga? If you want to know the core of an Israeli-rooted martial arts, of course Israeli masters would be the ones to consult. And that’s what the documentary showed. Pure and unadulterated Krav Maga.

UPDATE: In the last episode they showed Kajukenbo, and while it utilizes some similar techniques and is focused on merciless streetfighting, the whole spirit of those people was like the total opposite of what was shown in the Krav Maga episode. And that’s a crucial difference. The important thing is to look at what a practice does to a person.

UPDATE 2: I now learned that there’s virtually no alternative to a several years long compulsory military service in Israel. And Krav Mag is being taught to everybody during that time; naturally alongside the whole package of political agenda and implanting of fear-propaganda into people’s minds. With such a mass-indoctrination and -conditioning, it is no surprise that the situation just won’t find a resolution in the Middle East. Way too much energy is fed into the problem. There’s a very active desire on a grand scale to keep the conflict alive, and new radical fanatics (I mean Israelis now) are trained every day.

It is interesting though that there are Israelis bold enough to risk legal consequences by refusing to do military service, and according to Wikipedia information their numbers increase. Those are the actually courageous people, not the bullies in uniform.

Footnote: Funny thing in relation to this article and marketing automation: http://dowlphin.tumblr.com/post/126713670607/automated-twitter-fav-hilarity-this-is-the

Law of nature my ass

Sacrifices have been made over the course of millions of years. Our species has competitively extinguished life in order to get to where it is now. I would say it is time to afford ourselves some luxury of being more than just followers of survival-of-the-fittest.
Nature isn’t the end of all wisdom. Nature is a harsh mistress. Nature is boot camp. While it can be wise to learn from nature, nature works based on energy-conservation, and that is part of survival-of-the-fittest. It is base-materialism. Anything not following that pattern is of higher origin (one might say of divine origin). That is where the journey is going. Humankind has more and better means to move in either direction. We should not disgrace and dishonor all the efforts being made by our evolutionary ancestors and the lives having been traded for our own benefit by still acting as if all that hadn’t happened. Because otherwise all that passed time would be meaningless. Meaning enriches life. By giving meaning, we are using and nourishing our divine side, which has the power of not being purely reactionary and materialist and treating life like a zero-sum game, but creating something out of nothing; bringing new into this world.

Sadly, people of great influence who live lower modes of life can shape the world in a way that makes it harder for others to ascend to higher modes, and while responsibility rests with everybody, there are quantifiable differences. Just as with humankind’s evolutionary advantage over other species, those who attained great sustenance and means within our species should realize that and afford the luxury of acting more based on our divine gifts. Acting based on fear can either bring about a state where you don’t have to be afraid anymore, or it becomes a self-purpose, when you are weak and lose control, and become more and more afraid the more you try to bring about that state where you shouldn’t need to be afraid anymore.

Ratings: Judgment of usefulness vs. signaling of personal approval

Cynical reminder: Remember: Review ratings are not a usefulness indicator, but a popularity contest.

Occasionally I am being reminded of the frequent misuse (deliberate confusion) of usefulness votes for reviews as approval votes. While negative reviews can garner lots of approval, they won’t if what you say hurts the egoes of fanboys. They have an unhealthy attachment to the product or service in question (let’s just talk computer games here, since this is inspired by Steam), and that means there is a dependency that they themselves, deep within, are not happy about. This is usually the fact that they are willing to tolerate lots of crap, to accept not being respected. This of course is something they really don’t like to admit, so when you criticize a lack of respect from a game design or game business, you will unpleasantly remind the fanboys of their weakness and unhappiness, of their state of denial. It’s not intended, but that’s the effect it will have, and that’s why some justified and elaborate reviews might still get loads of downvotes. Usually without comment, in the case of actually somewhat smarter (and/or more fearful) fanboys who understand that any communication could give away what they are trying to hide. This at least helps with self-awareness. The ones that add a stupid comment to the downvote, fully revealing their motivations, are actually the fools. There’s relatively little hope for them, although this state still provides its own opportunities for eventual enlightenment. The path towards the light might lead through the deepest dorkness.

Among all the possible combinations of up- or downvote and no or stupid or elaborate comments that you agree or disagree with, the most valuable is the elaborate negative critique that you agree with, since it provides an important external viewpoint that makes you see what you couldn’t see on your own and helps you to improve your perceptions and judgments.

Stupid negative critique is still more useful to you than downvotes without comment, since that makes it easy to identify it as useless. So to all critics: Feel free to speak your mind. I’d like to get to know you and understand your reasoning. 😉
Stupid positive critique has its use, too, since it helps to identify baseless praise, which could become a big problem for you, and you should be able to imagine why.

Additional thought: Cases of downrated reviews about technical issues with a game could also be triggering pure egotism of the likes of ‘It worked fine on my system; you’re stupid.’

Perpetuating the pain you avoid

People don’t commit bad things because they are in pain, but because they are avoiding pain.

This is a bit like what C.G. Jung said about how fanatics are people who are trying to suppress an inner doubt.

People often know very well what lies they are trying to tell themselves.
Because this process, suppressing your own better knowledge, is nasty, many things can become a reminder of the truth, thus people who are suppressing pain have a habit, especially when reminded of it, to counteract in order to keep the self-lie up. A bit like when covering your ears and going “LALALALALA I can’t hear you”, but usually more active. Eventually this can turn into an offensive agenda of trying to spread your self-deception-based belief system in order to get external validation, to suppress inner doubt; to increase the likeliness of encountering people supportive of your lie and decrease the likeliness of encountering reminders of the suppressed pain. People who are doing that are becoming a slave to their inner demon, an agent, spreading the gospel of fear.

I had many encounters of this type. One I remember was at a house party where a couple with relationship problems had the tension over the husband’s neglection of the wife with child boil up. But I began helping them open up and understand each other’s grievances and pain, and just when it started to get somewhere healing, the girl whose home it was (whose personality was quite easy to read) invervened authoritatively and made sure that this open expression of feelings ended and that the wife got properly drunk instead. The way she herself quite obviously likes to deal with issues. (She at one point, during a discussion about the effects of alcohol, while drunk, dropped the hilarious self-parodizing sitcom-worthy line (with the intention of expressing her professional insights) that alcohol kills brain cells and that she knows because she works at a beverage market.)
It was saddening and frustrating, because since it was her home, there’s wasn’t much space for adversity over the matter without getting asked to leave.
And thus, long time later, from what I was told, the couple still struggled with the same issues. It was one of the many non-opportunities to cause positive change in my life. Outside of the setting of that house party, they wouldn’t have agreed to a private meeting anyway, due to their usual emotional state of avoidance. It was a chance ruined by an agent of pain; by someone who had willingly succumbed to weakness in the face of pain. And as usual, as long as there is no incentive to change, that person, too, couldn’t be helped.